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Jan 29, 2013

The Solution

Today was another day. Nothing special or anything.. But a certain small victory for me 'cause I just happened to sit down and write. *!!yay!!*

A storm was brewing.. err.. in my head. Nothing unusual happened this weekend but I was in a "state of mind". I tried to find a solution by consulting with a variety of humans from my life.. All to no avail!! The storm was apparently as set on staying as much as I wanted it to go away. How on earth it started is, as always, quite foggy. I sat getting all the more frustrated by the minute. Sometimes, every answer you can think of or every solution provided seems to make absolutely no sense. This was one of those 'sometimes'. 

In the midst of this, fortunately, I had the good sense to call on God... And I got this thought of reading a book that was given to me by a certain wise person with whom I consort with on an irregular basis!! This comforted me to a certain level where I was sure I would get an answer around the corner. Now I'm in the process of taking in the contents and my mind has already opened up quite a bit. More on that later..

After this, there were some things I wanted to remind myself of.. 

For starters, I'd always struggled(who doesn't!!) with these phrases- "no one understands me"; "I feel alone in a crowd" ; "I'm such a loser" ; "what am I going to do next?!" and so on and so forth... After years of research and sleepless nights (LOL!!),  I'd found a solution. So, one can understand the helplessness I felt when I realised that that solution wasn't enough!!! But I had made a grave mistake...

The solution had been right all along. Infact, I didn't even discover the solution, it found me!!! Jesus, my Lord and Saviour found me.. Even though He was very much present in my life, I'd forgotten to consult Him.. The solution was right under my nose but I'd failed to use it. He(Jesus) understands me completely; He never judges me; He has never left my side; and He has great plans for me!! Wow!! Seems simple enough.. But I've lost track so many times.. why? Cause I'd reverted to my natural way of thinking; foolishly unaware of the bigger picture.. I can't afford to slip off the path.. I've seen what that storm can do but Jesus has calmed the storm in me!! Nothing is too big for HIM!! yippie ya yoo!!! The Bible tells us to meditate on His Word day and night.. Oh how right those words are for they have cast a light on my follies so I might correct myself!!

 

Apr 11, 2012

Recap

It was stiflingly hot and the bus wasn't moving a bit.. It was half an hour late yet it felt like an eternity.. It eventually started on its dusty journey and to top it all off the window next to me wouldn't budge with me almost melting off.. The bus rambled on with a crazy driver whose idea of fun was speeding into speed bumps and throwing the passengers two feet into the air and back!! When i finally settled in my seat I realized that part of my head-rest was missing.. tough luck! Somehow I reached home in the wee morning.. Everyone at home was glad to see me though..

Then comes the return journey to Vellore which wasn't any more appealing.. This time my window did open but i had nowhere to stretch my poor legs.. The worst part of traveling with your windows open here is that you're forced to smell a variety of scents (hardly!).. There's the most common smell of cow poop, toxic smoke from passing vehicles and whiffs of poisonous waste from factories dumped carelessly near roads.. The rest is too messed up to explain..

I'm finally back to writing on my blog thanks to the sleepless night on the bus and me gulping down quite a few Redbulls today! I've been feeling very restless lately for which you cant seem to point your finger at a particular thing.. The need to throw something breakable seemed so appealing; tried controlling it to an extent.. finally i had to give up and my phone had to face my wrath.. It hit the wall with a big thud, bounced, hit a cabinet and dropped to the floor.. I put it back together and phew! it was still working.. Maybe it wasn't a good idea writing today, I feel so pessimistic.. Such a contradiction to how positive i was feeling a few days back.. 
I'll continue with some positivism tomorrow.. Fear keeps standing at the edge and threatens to creep back in but I know am stronger than that! to be coninued in a few hours.....

Nov 16, 2011

Fixed.

"Here in this maddening maze of things,

When tossed by storm and flood;

To one fixed ground my spirit clings,

I know that GOD is good.

- John Greenleaf Whittier

 

#Navigation is possible because of the existence of fixed points, and by constant reference to these points, sailors make their way around the world.

In life, the attributes of God are fixed points. His love, faithfulness, justice, purity, holiness, power are a few of the established parts of God's nature. Many things in this universe are subject to change- but not the nature of God. What He was, He is, and what He is, He was. And what He was and is, He ever will be! (refer James 13:8)#

"Focus on knowing who God is, and you will never again be at the mercy of the winds of doubt and uncertainty."

The trend these days is for minds to conform to the modern spirit- the spirit that spawns great thoughts of man and leaves room for only small thoughts of God.

- J.I. Packer

And hoping to read this book of Packer's really soon-

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P.S. This is something to REMEMBER always!

 

 

 

 

Nov 9, 2011

The Ant and the Contact Lens

I HAD TO post this as soon as I saw it!!! I remember my dad reading me this mail when I was a kid.. And a dear dear friend just forwarded it to me a few moments back! Here it is..

 

 "The task ahead of us is never as great as the Power behind us" 

..Brenda was almost halfway to the top of the tremendous granite cliff.  She was standing on a ledge where she was taking a breather during this, her first rock climb.  As she rested there, the safety rope snapped against her eye and knocked out her contact lens. 
 

'Great', she thought.  'Here I am on a rock ledge, hundreds of feet from the bottom and hundreds of feet to the top of this cliff, and now my sight is blurry.'  She looked and looked, hoping that somehow it had landed on the ledge.  But it just wasn't there.  

She felt the panic rising in her, so she began praying.  She prayed for calm, and she prayed that she might find her contact lens.  When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens, but it was not to be found.  Although she was calm now that she was at the top, she was saddened because she could not clearly see across the range of mountains.  She thought of the bible verse 'The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth.'

She thought, 'Lord, You can see all these mountains.  You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is.  Please help me.' 

Later, when they had hiked down the trail to the bottom of the cliff they met another party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff.  One of them shouted out, 'Hey, you guys!  Anybody lose a contact lens?' 

Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it?  An ant was moving slowly across a twig on the face of the rock, carrying it! 

  The story doesn't end there.  Brenda's father is a cartoonist.  When she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the contact lens, he drew a cartoon of an ant lugging that contact lens with the caption, 'Lord, I don't know why you want me to carry this thing.  I can't eat it, and it's awfully heavy.  But if this is what you want me to do; I'll carry it for you.'   

I think it would do all of us some good to say, 'God, I don't know why you want me to carry this load.  I can see no good in it and it's awfully heavy.  But, if you want me to carry it, I will.'  

God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

Yes, I do love GOD.  He is my source of existence and my Savior.  He keeps me functioning each and every day.  Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him...I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. (Phil. 4:13) 

I guess this is my first universally beneficial post ever! GOD bless!! :)

Nov 7, 2011

Re-told

Here are a bunch of quotes I picked up from here, there and everywhere.. And I thought penning them down to my blog of randomness would be a good idea, so I don't lose them in this maddening maze..
# To be truly happy a man must live absolutely in the present, and with no thought of what's gone before, and no thought of what lies ahead. But a life of meaning, a man is condemned to wallow in the past, and obsess about the future.
# This world can't be saved by strength, what it really needs is a heart.
The need to solve life's mysteries when the simpliest of questions can never be answered. Why are we here? What is the soul? Why do we dream? Perhaps we would be better off not looking at all. Not delving. Not yearning. But that's not human nature. Not the human heart. That is not why we are here. Yet still we struggle to make a difference. To change the world. To dream of hope. Never knowing for certain who we'll meet along the way. Who, among the world of strangers, will hold our hand. Touch our hearts. And share the pain of trying.
Dreams are like bubbles....the bigger they get, the more likely they are to burst.
When confronted by our worst nightmares, the choices are few. Fight, or flight. We hope to find the strength to stand against our fears but sometimes, despite ourselves, we run.
We are all connected. Joined together by an invisible thread, infinite in its potential and fragile in its design. Yet while connected, we are also merely individuals. Empty vessels to be filled with infinite possibilities. An assortment of thoughts, beliefs. A collection of disjointed memories and experiences. Can I be me without this? Can you be you? And if this invisible thread that holds us together were to sever, to cease, what then? What would become of billions of lone, disconnected souls? Therein lies the great quest of our lives. To find. To connect. To hold on. For when our hearts are pure, and our thoughts in line, we are all truly one. Capable of repairing our fragile world, and creating a universe of infinite possibilities.
It's one of the great tragedies of life — something always changes.
It takes almost as much creativity to understand a good idea as to have it in the first place.
The unexamined life is not worth living. - Socrates
Whatever does not destroy me makes me stronger.
Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect. - Twain
By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest.
There are no secrets better kept than the secrets that everybody guesses.- George B. Shaw
Never think that war, no matter how necessary, nor how justified, is not a crime.

Nov 4, 2011

Insomniac. (false)

I can't sleep again.. It is'nt insomnia striking again but rather the incessant nagging of unaccomplished business (no idea what that is) and Tyler Shields' words echoing in my head- Dont sleep now, you'll have a lot of time to sleep when you're dead.. Not that I am a fan of this creepy celebrity photographer, but one has to admit he's pretty good at what he does.. I was just fishing through his site hoping to find some very blatant mind-control symbolism(ooooh!) in his photography.. I recently got hooked onto this subject which I'm obviously very new to.. Mom's definitely not pleased, with my present interest; especially since she has to hear my constant rambling about stuff she classifies as 'unwanted' and I, for one, become all the more enthusiastic!
I definitely don't see my blog taking on any direction any time soon, so I'm just going to go with whatever's in my head at the moment..
Yesterday, a seemingly insignificant person messed up a happy moment.. Well maybe its wrong of me to call anyone 'insignificant' in the first place.. If they were insignificant, they shouldn't bother me, right?! (whatever blah blah blah!) Anywho, 'twas nothing a hug from my canine budds couldn't cure :) Junior's definitely grown from the last time I saw him and Trixie seems to be the same..She's starting to look like a pixie though, pointy face and all.. And I'm just waiting to get an awesome camera so I can clickety-click them away (wish I atleast had my dad's old slr *sighs*).. I'm actually a bit exhausted because of my extensive traveling these days *big yawwnn*  Okayy now I definitely have to give into sweet slumber :) hopefully I keep posting some random stuff for my sake atleast!

Oct 17, 2011

Back Again..!

Here I am again, continuing on with my "musings" even after my lazybones fingers put up a pretty good fight with my oh so earnest heart. Anyway I was just going through my blog(jus started a few months back after droppin out as mayor of lazyville!) and found it a bit melo-dramatic and plain depressing. Not that a lotta people stumble onto my elusive bloggies and are goin to be depressed by it.. well u never know.. Not to start complaining but am back home again after a bout of fever.. even the weather is so dampening.. on the bright side i've got 2 bundles of joy and excitement at home( my canine pals- trixie and junior)!! I am so jellybean(green wit envy) of these two.. They hog like pigs, sleep like they've never slept before and jump around like craaaazy.. The hakuna matata life for them..hmph! I've been too comfy comfy for far too long.. It time to get a lil' mud on those shoes! Lets see what comes along.. and hopefully I'll continue posting like a dedicated bloggerbee! :) 

Aug 3, 2011

Do all jobs really suck? - Courtesy:-> someone's blog


There are a lot of people in this world who believe that work necessarily involves pain and sacrifice.
They say, “All jobs suck.”
They say, “You might as well go for the big money because money is the only reason anyone works.”
They say, “Anyone who thinks he can find a job that will actually make him happier is a fool.”
Let’s set the record straight once and for all: The world is full of people who love their jobs, people who go to work because they truly enjoy what they’re doing, people who have made a fundamental connection between the person they are and the work they do for a living. I’ve met some of them myself, seen them with my own two eyes: professional bloggers, teachers, writers, medical professionals, nutritionists; varied practitioners with one thing in common – they love their jobs.
 
Listen, I’m a realistic guy, and I understand that most people don’t love their jobs. But I also know that it would only take one real-life Bigfoot to prove that Bigfoot exists (not that I believe in Bigfoot, mind you), so the mere fact that the world is full of people who really do love their jobs should be proof to all of you that meaningful, inspiring careers do exist.
Whenever I explain my point of view regarding meaningful work to people, they generally stare at me, befuddled. Maybe they think I’m crazy. Crazy or not, I reject the notion that work must be painful sacrifice. I reject the notion that money is the only reason to work. I reject the notion that we’re all doomed to spend 8, 9, 10 hours a day slaving away at jobs we hate so we can fill our homes with crap we don’t need. I reject these notions outright. If you’re planning to show up at my door hawking these ideas, know this: I’m not buying.
The question that needs to be asked is not whether meaningful careers exist (they do), but why so few people obtain them. The answers to that question are too numerous to cover in a single blog article, but let’s take a quick peek at the top 7:
1. School teaches people how to be beaurocrats, not individuals: Our schools, grade school through college, are focused on turning you into a peg who will fit neatly into some company’s pre-defined job description. The lessons taught by school are important (we should all learn how to read and write, after all), but that’s not really my point. My point is that finding a job you love requires soul searching and personal exploration, and that’s simply not what school is all about.
2. Lack of information and inspiration: It wouldn’t be so bad that schools don’t teach us how to find personally rewarding careers, except that nobody else is teaching us how to do it either. The quest for meaningful work just isn’t part of our lexicon. Nobody’s talking about it. The need for meaningful work is something we generally stumble upon on our own, usually during a mid-life crisis, when we’ve finally come to the conclusion that we’re tired of the way we spend the majority of our waking hours.
3. Human beings are naturally short-sighted: As Psychologist Abraham Maslow suggested many years ago, we humans tend to be blind to all but our most immediate needs. When we’re young, we can’t afford to support ourselves financially, so our career decisions are based upon money and little else. We do not realize that our expectations of work will change dramatically once we satisfy our economic needs, once we realize that money isn’t everything.




4. The natural human prejudice against work: The prejudice against work dates back thousands of years to some of our most influential texts. Adam and Eve lived the quintessential life of leisure until sin condemned them to hard work, and this idea of work as punishment has become so ingrained in our thinking that we have trouble believing that work can be rewarding.
5. The long, hard road: Finding a meaningful career is hard work, and there’s no real roadmap to follow. The journey often involves trial and error, which is generally frowned upon in a world where reliability and predictability are valued above all else.
6. Pervasive job dissatisfaction: When 95% of the people you know have settled, it’s hard to believe you don’t have t7. Uncertainty: Some people are drawn to a particular career from an early age, but many of us are not. It’s hard to muster the courage it takes to pursue a dream job when you have only the foggiest notion of whether it will satisfy you.
Each of these 7 reasons is a big deal, hard to overlook and overcome. But once you understand the motivations that have held your professional life in place all these years, you can start to move forward, one step at a time.
You can start by letting go of the silly notion that work cannot be rewarding and meaningful. It can be, and once you admit that to yourself, it becomes awfully hard to justify the 8, 9, or 10 hours a day you spend working at a career that does not inspire you.
Everyone has a bad day at work every now and then. Even the most inspired professional sometimes wakes up dreading the day that looms ahead. But when the lack of professional inspiration becomes a permanent fixture in your work life, it’s time to consider your options.
So what exactly am I saying here? First of all, I’m not suggesting that we should all throw caution to the wind and foolishly start chasing our dreams, no matter how unrealistic. Nor am I suggesting that intrinsic motivations (such as meaning and purpose) are all that matter. After all, you have bills to pay, and so do I, so we can’t just sell our financial futures down the river.
What I am saying is that your life is too valuable to waste in an uninspiring job. Research has shown that a decent middle-class wage is generally good enough for most people; a great variety of jobs exist that can help you make at least that much. Pick one that satisfies you.